Jill’s Story

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Jill

Story after story reminds our community that recovery isn’t a snap of the fingers. Similar to any disease, recovery from addiction requires an effective treatment strategy paired with an attitude of compassion. So often at Meta House, we see and admire the resilience of women who determinedly tread down the path of recovery and move past the setbacks along the way. This is especially true for one of our recent clients, Jill.

A wife and mom of two, Jill went into treatment in May 2002. Motivated to overcome her alcohol addiction, Jill poured herself into her recovery. And she thrived for 12 long years.

At year 12, Jill was working a high stress job and taking on too much. She remembers feeling overwhelmed. “I took everything in internally. I am a fixer, a people-pleaser. I couldn’t do it anymore. What took me years to do before, just took me three months – I spiraled,” Jill shares. Her health also took a downward turn and she found herself in the hospital repeatedly. Concerned, a friend recommended Meta House.

Jill was 47 years old. Looking back, she acknowledges that it was extremely difficult to accept that she needed to receive treatment for her alcohol addiction. Plus, she knew she would have to leave her family for a time and it was right before the holidays. She remembers the separation being the hardest step, especially separation from her granddaughter. Yet, Jill also knew she needed to make that choice.

She now admits it was worth the sacrifice. “Coming to residential at Meta House was amazing. I had to focus on myself. I was open and could talk about anything I wanted to. I had awesome counselors,” she reflects. “Going into [residential] and my family knowing that I was safe and where I was for four months, was a blessing for them and for me.”

Jill diligently followed her treatment plan at Meta House and opened up to her counselor. After leaving residential treatment, she continued to attend outpatient treatment. It was important to her to continue receiving services, especially after her relapse, saying, “I had 12 years and I did everything I was supposed to do. And then I got complacent. I stopped going to my meetings. I stopped going to everything. I didn’t have a sponsor. When I spiraled, I felt like I had lost everything – all my years of hard work.”

Jill is now a Meta House graduate. She works at a high school where she’s been employed throughout the past 15 years. “I look forward to going,” she shares. “I love the people I work with, and I’ve had so much support.”

When asked what’s been an area of growth this past year, Jill pauses for a moment and then slowly, but thoughtfully, answers, “We self-sabotage ourselves and don’t have any compassion for ourselves. A year ago, I couldn’t look into the mirror without hating that person. And today I love that person.”